Love lets love breath

I have that feeling in my chest again, you know the one that weighs you done like a ton a bricks. The heaviness sinks in and all I can think is how did I get here?

Unexpected circumstances have a tendency to want to drown me in a spirit of hopelessness. To tell me God isn’t really all that good and I will forever be missing the mark. My emotions rise in a panic as I run from disappointment in an effort to not feel loss. Calmly sitting on the floor in the midst of my struggle is Love. He looks at me as if He wants me to join Him. I think to myself He must be mad. How can He just sit there? In the words of the disciples in Mark chapter 4:39 “Teacher don’t you even care that we are all about to die”. I can relate to the emotions rising up in the disciples, I feel helpless and Jesus is sleeping in the midst of my need for Him to move. Mark 4:39 goes on to say “Fully awake, he rebuked the storm and shouted to the sea, “Hush!” Be still!” All at once the wind stopped howling and the water became perfectly calm.” Jesus goes on to convict His followers of their unbelief but I am left to wonder why the sea seems to still be raging in my own life.

When I have no answers for the raging sea, I must confess to the Lord that I need a new perspective. I ask the Lord to change what’s going on around me meanwhile He desires to change the inside of me. The Holy Spirit rises up to intercede and suddenly I see this raging sea isn’t at all around me but within me. I am reminded of James 1:6 “……For the ambivalent person believes one minute and doubts the next. Being undecided makes you become like the rough seas driven and tossed by the wind. You’re up one minute and tossed down the next.” Jesus wanted to do more then change the weather, He wanted to remove doubt and fear from the hearts of His disciples. “Then he turned to his disciples and said to them, “Why are you so afraid? Haven’t you learned to trust yet?” – Mark 4:40 

I decided to sit with Jesus in the middle of my disappointment and let Him speak the words “Hush, be still my daughter”. It is in this place that I find that love lets love breath. He gives me time to process and to allow my emotions to have a safe place with Him. He wraps me up in compassion and trusts His love to drive out fear. He is well aware of my struggle but He is also aware of the power He holds to bring about new things….better things. My messes don’t bother Him and my failures don’t disappoint Him. He is much more focused on love letting love breath into my heart the power of transforming me into the image of His Son. He works from the inside out, not from the outside in. His heart is deeply moved by mine in ways I can’t understand. He is madly in love with me and I long to know Him.

Being lead by fear can blind us from the presence of the Father. We unconsciously assume are emotions are ultimate truth when in reality they simply signal a need for more of Him. There is a place with God where are emotions can glorify Him simply by letting Love breath life inside of our hearts and minds. He loves to purify our hearts and cleanse are minds from all unrighteousness. He works from a place of rest not from a place of panic. He is not intimated by time to push us to a place that we’re not. The patience of the Father is astounding. There is always grace inside a relationship with Him and space to be exactly where you are. Love wants to breath life inside of you so let Him.

  “Listen, Jacob, to the One who created you, Israel, to the one who shaped who you are. Do not fear, for I, your Kinsman-Redeemer, will rescue you. I have called you by name, and you are mine. When you pass through the deep, stormy sea, you can count on me to be there with you. When you pass through raging rivers, You will not drown. When you walk through persecution like fiery flames, you will not be burned; the flames will not harm you,  for I am your Savior, Yahweh, your mighty God, the Holy One of Israel! I give up Egypt as the price to set you free, Cush and Seba in exchange to bring you back. Since you are cherished and precious in my eyes, and because I love you dearly and want to honor you, I willingly give up nations in exchange for you—a man to save your life. I am with you now, even close to you, so never yield to fear. I will bring your children from the east; from the west I will gather you. I will say to the north, ‘Hand them over!’ and to the south, ‘Don’t hold them back! Bring me my sons from far away, my daughters from the ends of the earth! Bring me everyone who is called by my name, the ones I created to experience my glory. I myself formed them to be who they are and made them for my glory.” – Isaiah 43-7 TPT

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